Me - Summer 2012
Me - Summer 2013 to Now
Something that has been an issue for as long as I can remember has been my weight. From a young age I felt as if I was bigger than all my friends, and this made me uncomfortable and upset. I was self conscious, had low self esteem and hated my body. From around the age 14 I was constantly on and off diets, although never managing to loose a considerable amount, and never sticking to healthy eating and exercise. I’d always revert back to old habits of stuffing my face with chocolate and sweets and praying that by some miracle I’d wake up skinny.
I eventually gave up trying around the age of 18, I still disliked my body, and I wasn’t truly comfortable but I stopped caring so much and started to come to terms with how I looked, and I learnt to ignore how I felt about my body. When I was 19 I spent three months travelling along the East Coast of Australia. I did what I wanted, and consequently ate what I wanted. I had an amazing time and didn’t care what anyone thought of me, at the time I didn’t even realise I was so overweight, I was just me. When I got back from travelling and stepped on the scales I nearly cried at what I saw. I was at my highest ever weight, and at that moment I realised I needed to loose weight and be more healthy. With starting Uni soon I knew I wanted to be smaller and that I wasn’t truly happy with how I looked.
That summer I started to loose weight. Between June 2012 and now I’ve managed to loose about a stone and a half. Which I think shows in the photos of me. However that journey hasn’t been easy, and is by no means over, and I still want to loose another stone and a half. These past nearly two years my weight has been up and down. I pretty much plateaued for 6 months, then managed to break that and loose some more. However since December of last year I've managed to put back on half a stone. Christmas combined with starting a new relationship, as well as stress and boredom has allowed the pounds to creep back on.
I’ve also struggled with a lack of motivation, and disappointed when my efforts seemed to fail. I have Poly Cystic Ovary Syndrome which, amongst over things, makes it more difficult for me to loose weight. I don’t know the exact science but people with PCOS find it harder to loose weight than people without because of how their body is working. This means when I do try really hard, and still see no results I get really disheartened and go searching for the chocolate and ice cream.
However, I’ve decided, this is all going to change. Im taking responsibility for my weight and health, and Im changing things. I’ve decided to change my goal, and not focus primarily on weight loss, instead focusing on being healthier and fitter, and hopefully this will lead to weight loss, however slowly my body decides to act.
So from now on I’m going to be posting a Weight Loss/Healthy Lifestyle post every Wednesday, to help me stay motivated. The posts will range from updates, tips and advice, things I’ve eaten, reviews and anything related to weight loss and healthy living. This time Im determined to stick to my goals and feel better about myself!
If anyone else is on a weight loss/healthy lifestyle journey good luck and please let me know, as I'd love to have some people to chat to about it! And if you have any tips, or motivation to help me on my way please leave a comment. :)