It's been a while since my last Life Lately update, so I guess it's time to fill you all in on how things are going. Mostly things are good, sometimes things are great, occasionally things are amazing. I'm getting stuck into the adult life now, I wouldn't say I've fully got there yet, but I'm making my way there.
After taking a few months break from blogging, which was totally needed, I'm more confident in saying I'm back! Having a full time job, and a (limited) social life does mean I'm blogging less, and not as consistently as I had previously, but ultimately this is my little space for me and even if it's just once a week thats fine with me.
Heartbreak got me hard, you'll know that if you follow me on twitter or if you read my last Let's Get Personal post. I think I'm getting to a place where I'm ready to move on and stop missing my previous relationship. It's really hard to know how I feel, I'm trying to separate my feelings and work out what I'm feeling. Whether I'm missing him as a friend, missing being loved, or missing my relationship with him. It's starting to feel a bit more clear, but I don't know if love ever truly goes away, or if it just gets smaller until that person only has the smallest part of your heart. I know I'll always care about him, and I hope one day we're at a place where friendship can be possible.
Another pretty big life update for me is that I've come off medication for my anxiety. It was something I'd been thinking about doing for a few months but I wanted to make sure I was in a stable place in my life before I did. The first two weeks were hard, mostly due to the physical withdrawal symptoms, with a few emotional days. In the 2 weeks since I stopped taking it I've only had one day where I felt really anxious, but it was still considerably less than how I've felt in the past and it was much more manageable. My anxiety isn't ever going to fully leave me I don't think, but I do think it will become much easier to manage and hopefully creep up less and less.
I'm trying to find the positive in every day, to feel happy and to embrace the good moments. Life is confusing and unknown and I could overthink every little moment, but that's not going to help anything. Life happens, sometimes you can't plan it and you just have to go with the flow. So that's what I'm trying to do, go with the flow, start moving on with my life and accept that this is the start of a new chapter.
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